As for the bewraying, or rather betraying, of my friends, since I dare swear for their fidelity to her majesty and crown, and am assured that such my bewraying could in no sort do my prince or country service, but give occasion and opportunity to their enemies, I hope in all humanity I may be pardoned, and wish not to live with such a spot of infamy, more intolerable far than death itself.
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